Mutual Astrology

The Scorpio South Node/ Taurus North Node Pattern is one I know well and is one of my own placements. It shows a deep struggle with control and intensity and the path to releasing that and living in calm and consistency. It is the tension between the familiarity of chaos and the , often described, “boring” consistent routine of everyday grounded living.

For reference I am going to be speaking of the 4th /10th house axis specifically. Which is where it affects me in my birth chart. I have Scorpio in the 10th house where my South Node sits and Taurus in the 4th house directly opposite that house where my North Node sits. I never understood why I always felt so intense throughout my life, why everything I felt was to the extreme. Even simple things.

I could always anger very quickly and it was always the end of the world when I became upset. I was always “too much” and “dramatic”. Which gave me a complex early on and so I tried to be less. Less intense, less dramatic, and I simply shut down. It was easier that way. I held it in. I soothed it away by escaping it.

I read a lot as a child but what I never realized was I was growing it subconsciously. It wasn’t going away I just compartmentalized it. I avoided it.

But it never truly went anywhere. It was deep and it was waiting. I was simply a kettle of water on the stove waiting to explode and when I did I would retract again. I would go back into myself and try to be less again. I did this for most of my life and even as an adult. When I found other coping mechanisms I used those such as drugs and drinking, self harm, anything to release what I had held inside for so many years. I wanted peace and the “boring” things but didn’t ever quite know how to get it. I tried sometimes. but then it would feel slow and actually made me anxious.

My soul didn’t know what to do with calmness. Because that wasn’t what I already knew or was comfortable with. And this is what usually happens in South Node -North Node patterns. We crave what our North Node sign wants us to have but its difficult to sit in and not run from it in some way. There is no familiarity there. It’s not automatically easy. So we run. Back to what is comfortable and familiar. Its the place our early life and childhood was. But when we consciously choose out North Node patterns our lives become easier. Things tend to go the way we need them to go. Yes , of course it usually takes time to grow into as we age but we always have the option of doing the uncomfortable thing and choosing it once we realize and learn what these patterns are.

Now I try to consciously practice my Taurus North Node patterns. I slow down, I make sure to check in with myself more, and I also don’t overextend myself with my time and energy in things that drain me (which is the lesson and growth for the rest of my chart.) I balance my intensity and channel it into my business now instead of in my everyday life and the people in it. Am I perfect? Of course not. But am I growing and learning consciously? Yes.

Do you know your own North/South Node Axis? What is it and how are you living it at the moment?

-Angelina Astro